Monday, February 9, 2009

NARUTO!!!!!!!!! & InuYasha !

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InuYasha
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Wednesday, February 4, 2009

How am I feeling?
Surprisingly still pretty "refreshed" & happy for the most part. I'm trying to live up to that new year's resolution of keeping a blog - it's frustrating only because I have other things to do, but plenty on my mind. Siempre.

I just don't have the time to piece my thoughts together, nor do I have the attention span for a blog. If I honestly wanted to write about EVERYTHING that I feel right now, then I don't think I'd be able to do it.. .because it'd be way too much to write! I feel rather sick (internally), however my mind& heart are doing just fine!

I'm really becoming hard on myself. About everything. Friendships. Relationship. Academics. I'm really battering&bruising myself. I just wanna be happy, you know? But i've always felt that it's easier to be sad than happy. But I don't want a reason to feel sad anymore... and it seems like I always force it upon myself to feel melancholy.

melancholy&crestfallen are som of my favourite words , but it doesnt mean i wanna feel like that! Those feelings cause way too many problems in my social life.. I just want to live a happy life with Calvin. And that's all. I want to drown out everything else, people's opinions (especially) & other people- because they shouldnt matter in our relationship.

Help me, God.
Help me to put the greatest trust in him,
Because i've never felt so sure about anything before.<3

Monday, February 2, 2009

I just want you,

you know what i'm sick & tired of? The whole.. you're going to change your mind, you don't know what you want at this age shit. The fuck? It's our choice isn't it.

I love Calvin, I honestly really do.
And I honestly plan on spending the rest of my life with him. And yeah, we both feel the same way... and if we feel the same way, - i mean i know we're going to change as people as we get older... but, that doesn't mean we have to change how we feel about eachother.

If anything we should be able to grow closer together as a couple, not farther apart. I just had to get that off my chest, 'cause i'm fucking tired of peoples bullshit opinions. but those opinions shouldnt matter right?

Right.


I really should sleep soon, Denny's tomorrow morning with Calvin Gia Kiet.

He really is lovely...


& I'm very much in love. With him. & only him. :]